When I started working more to get back to a habit of daily, personal reading I was convicted. I just felt bad about myself. The Law can do that. When you’re sinning and you read Scripture, it tends to point out the fact that you’re sinning and prick your conscience. Let’s just say my conscience has bled this year more than usual.
But then God started bringing me Peace. It may have helped that I got out of the Old Testament prophets and into the Gospels and Psalms. I should know this by now, but I wanted to forge ahead with my reading plan and it turned out that as I was reading the Old Testament prophecies of doom and condemnation upon Israel, I was feeling the weight of my sin heavily. Duh, right?
Anyway, I started by just digging into some reading plans in the YouVersion app, and that lightened things up. YouVersion offers short devotionals centered, like Headspace, on what emotions you’re dealing with at the moment. The internet is amazing like that. I got helpful spiritual guidance while nursing my baby in the dark and reading on my phone. But I had to read the right stuff.
One thing I love about the YouVersion app is that it keeps track of your days in the app, and I really didn’t want to break my streak, so I kept reading the Word. Thus, small steps toward a stronger habit.
The more I’m in the Word, the more I feel like I need it. If I want to stay on an even keel through the highs and lows of homeschooling, five kids, the newborn phase, and potty training, I need more of God’s Word in my life, not less.